menanti...

walaupun aku senyum dalam diri tak bermakna aku gembira...sepi tanpa bahagia..sedih tidak bermakna, namun sentiasa cubaan hidup seakan aku hina,..

mengapa aku??

sedihnya...ingin ku luahkan semuanya disini...supaya hilang kesdihan dihatiku..kamu..kamu dimana kamu...ya allah aku perlukan dia...disisiku..fahamiku..sentiasa disaat sedih ku..sentiasa kesausahnku..untuk gembirakn ku..aku pedih, sedih...

apakah seterusnya..

inikah akhirnya kehidupanku..ini kah yang aku mintak??tidak pernah sesekali..semua orang nak kan apa yang di idamkan..tapi aku semkin jauh dari apa yg di inginkan di dalam kehidupan seseorang..pernah aku mintak sesuatu yang luar biasa.hanya kebiasaan hidup untuk seorang insan..bukan dari satu masalah ke satu masalah yang bukan ku minta..perlukah aku hadapi semua ini..bila ku jalani hidup ini..berbagai pandangan orang..tetapi itukah yang ku perlu??aku mahu hanya hidup tenang..bukan terlalu kesempurnaan..tetapi jauh dari kesedihan..jika selama ini aku hidup sentiasa sembunyikan dari sedih..tpi sampai bila harus ku alami...relakan lah aku pergi...

august leaving september coming........

argh..(mengeluh)...sudah lama rupanye aku xbuka blog ni....terleka kah aku?bz kah aku??mencari duit yang xpernah cukup???atau aku sudah bosan dan fadeup ngan hidup aku ni???bekerja ditempat baru...mulakan hidup baru..satu demi satu akan aku lakukan untuk kehidupan aku yang seterusnya..mampukah aku???sendiri tidak yakin apakan lagi orang yang membacanye sarah...mmmm...apakan daya ku..puasa...sendirian...sunyi sepi...aku kehilangan sikit demi sedikit...

am i fault???

last week its to means for me...i cant be myself...dun no..maybe i stress with lot problems..wit him especially..i know he is the bos but can he consider with me..not all my fault.. i just wan 2 stay with my mum..its ok u can deducted my salary wat..but wat i need is understand my situation and not talking bout money..my mum is more important than ur money..if he fell trouble wit my works its ok..i can accept it..the problem is money..oh shit!!!

hapy new year...

hapy new year to all...wow my december 2009 nothing info...im realized dat..so sory.. im to bz...with my mum sick coz not enough platlet..maybe wrong spell...hahaha..but doctor said if below then 10 it very dangerous...alhamdulilah my mum become ok..i know she love me...she wil ok for me..her beloved daughter...with my bro got some accident with the stupid car...my niece get married..and me only can see...hahha.waiting my turn...to young...hahhahha

i hate it

wat policy dat i cant know my motorcycle status..he's riding my motorcycle n got accident then i cant know dat case..wat lawyer kind of dis....i have authority wat...argh..u know wat mohd ridhuan u must pay wat i get..wat promises....i swear ur life become bad,scary, nightmare..i promise dats..

dun take dis lawyer sukbinder singh acvocate @ solicitors co...was ur time n money...

through my window

my feelings

im not ok...

without convo...:-(

huh...sad without degree convo but it is ok..i happy with my mum..i need wit my mum see her doctor.. i luv u so much mum...i'll doing anything 4 u mum..mis u all my frends...its ok..

Nautilus Bay bliss by the sea

frends...

suddenly..i miss so much all my frends...especially my bes frends..i dun know either now they r still remember me or not...mmmm....????simple question y sometimes we can make frends as enemy???

i cant sleep...

i juz came back from tuition...ok..nothing happen to me..alhamdulillah..im proudly tonight i can teach someone fluently..da question im also take da time b4..hahha..now i better confident...huahua..kumon is da best..da methods which are push us to memorize and calculate in mind without using finger or jobdown any step...very fantastic...amazing..come n join us...actually i dun want talking bout this..i cant sleep tonight coz maybe i cant forget what happen to me today...argh...wat we can do 4 untrusted people???checking my ym, email n anything else behind me..i know la...dun be so stupid n coward la..face n try me ok....

like i said...

my worst day...how dare him shouted me..argh... i know even wan it quickly but please respect me to..im human too....argh..i cant push my eyes to read all and find that words...im stupid..especially without my glasses...my fate..

today...its hards...

mmmm...i dun know wat happen 2 me today..everything i do waste my time actually..when i came 2 office then pc very slow..this 1 corrupted that 1 corrupted..huargh..need to backup first...then i find my glasses no in my handbag...another bad thing coming..most2 worse day today 4 me..i can expect tonight also will become more da worse thing at tuition class..i believe that..just wait and face it..and one more thing..i dun know how to tell my boss bout me...i wan go back my hometown early..how can i tell him...wargh..my tongue..pls say that..

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

waalaikumusalam...
mmm...i dun know how 2 start it..but when im start working..im realize that are null in my heart,,, in my room. talking alone,,all is alone lar..so when i always surf tenet give me the idea y not im trying to create my blog..i can share about me,, my job, my tuition, my traning and all bout me...huhuu...even i just now create my blog its doesnt mean i dun know about webpage before..actually i learned to create webpage starting my diploma 5 years before but never have a time to do it..now...i'll try to share what i can share in my blog..hope u all will support me...thank you...luv u all